I am??

What is it called??
When there's a light on your face but there's just an ice freezing in your heart?

What is it called??
When  you see something but your only sight just on your thought?

What is it called??
When you're just need someone's shoulder  to cry on but actually there's nobody in your side?

It's so pathetic to realize it when you're in this age
It's an age where your must having your fun
It's an age where you're just do what you want
And it's an age where you should know what you wanted to be

But why i don't feel so?
Am i not right to have my age fun?
Am i not right to do what i want?
Am i really not right to know what i wanted to be?

It's really like breathe in the empty, lone, drain room